Leaving Romania
In 2021, I left Romania with mostly nothing but some clothes. My first job in Germany ended quickly, and with the second one, after six months, I went straight into the raw life. I started traveling intensely, learning a strangely spontaneous yet beautiful art: how to create everything out of nothing, even when my pockets were almost empty. I passed through over 200 cities across Europe and all of this changed me in ways nothing else could. I grew incredibly.
But on the surface, it was a continuous adventure, a wild one. Deep down, however, it was a run. I was desperately trying to fill an inner void I didn't understand, and in that race, I ended up doing things that hurt me.
The dark place
By 2024, I was in Switzerland. I was in a very dark mental, emotional, and spiritual place. I had started having a drug problem; what used to be for fun had become a constant in my life. I felt like I was losing control and slowly stepping into a place I no longer knew how to escape.
In my final moment, I asked for help. I prayed. I remember my Instagram was deactivated at the time, but a thought told me to activate it. And the very first thing that popped up when I opened it was Ayahuasca.
The awakening
Out of that darkness, a light was lit: I left for Peru. There, I was introduced to the shamanic world and shamanic medicine. It was my spiritual awakening.
The obsessive search
From that moment on, my life turned into an obsessive search. I became obsessed with healing whatever was hurting me. I did every possible therapy — if you were a therapist and promised a way, a technique, I came to you. I was guided by a single thought: “If there is something to be found there for me, I'm going to go and take it.” I learned immensely from that period and got to know a lot, but I didn't find the answers I was looking for.
Going through this filter, I understood that most of today's so-called “spiritual world” is still very far from true spirituality. For me, spirituality has been radically simplified: it means pure love.
The path I hold
So I walked away from there and chose to follow a single path: shamanism. I continued going to Peru, working with the plants, and pursuing my initiation as a shaman with two shamanic lineages — the Rainbow lineage and the Shipibo-Conibo ayahuasqueros. Now, I have an extraordinary master from the Shipibo-Conibo lineage. With him, I am learning how energy truly works and what real healing means, way beyond theories.
This is where I find myself. This is my calling and the purest thing inside my heart. In my essence, this is what I want to do for the rest of my life: to learn, to know myself, and to be able to bring light into the world through who I am.
Thank you for walking this journey with me. I love you all.